Tassels on Garments
37The LORD said to Moses, 38"Speak to the people of Israel, and tell them to make tassels on the corners of their garments throughout their generations, and to put a cord of blue on the tassel of each corner. 39And it shall be a tassel for you to look at and remember all the commandments of the LORD, to do them not to follow after your own heart and your own eyes, which you are inclined to whore after. 40So you shall remember and do all my commandments, and be holy to your God. 41 I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt to be your God: I am the LORD your God." Numbers 15:37-41
I remember reading these verses and my initial response... "Ouch!" And a particularly painful ouch went out after reading "which you are incl inced to whore after." Really? whore after? I thought it would've been so much less painful had He chosen a different word so I went to the NIV. Nope, it still hurt - he used the word prostitute. There's no getting way from my whorish heart. Unlike a prostitute I give my heart, mind, eyes, ears and affections away....for free.
After digesting those first few verses I began to notice verse 41. I wondered why God continually made reference to himself as being our God. "I am the LORD your God, ....to be your God" and again with the last part of 41 when he repeats "I am the LORD your God." It's been several weeks since I've thought about these verses and it seems that God hasn't forgotten what he began to stir in my heart when he caused me to notice something one would think is so obvious and simple. At times I'm a little slow in the head (OK, most of the time!).
A few nights ago I began to remember these words. I opened my bible and found Numbers 15. It was then that I began to understand. I closed my eyes and could almost see God saying "Marcy, I am YOUR God. I, YOUR God, brought you out and continue to pull away from your Egypt." Then I felt much like a child would when a parent is trying to get their attention by placing their loving hands on the child's shoulders and leaning down to their eye level to reinforce understanding...God uttered to my heart "I am the Lord YOUR God, not your friends, not your family, not Sir Chadwick, not your will, nor your desires. I am the LORD your God. There will be none before me."