My sister send this link to me earlier today. Her subject line read "Wow". She wasn't kidding.
I hope this video will inspire and stir your affections as it has mine. I've recently had some idols revealed and removed from my life. It hasn't been pretty. It hasn't been comfortable. I have to admit that I haven't been all together gracious in receiving these lessons either. I'm a bit bratty, that's also an understatement of a lifetime. Anyhow, this video has brought it all back into prospective.
This is how I spent a portion of my saturday night.
Post dinner I sat him on the couch with his sippie cup, blanket and favorite show while I cleaned up the kitchen. A few moments later I heard "My-eeeee". I stopped and wondered what he was doing until I heard it again "My-eeee!" I then realized HE WAS CALLING ME!!!! My heart nearly melted into a puddle!
While rocking him to sleep that night I was so overwhelmed with God's loving kindness. I started remembering how I instantly fell in love with this child the moment I learned of his existence. Love is such an amazing gift. It wears many hats and shares many faces, but all of it is a gift from Him.
It feels like each time something in my life is handed over it's only a matter of time before I start playing with it again, make it my own, tighten my grip on it and struggle to (re)release it.
*sigh* will I EVER learn?!
I desperately crave sugar. I even dream about it... seriously! who dreams about kit kats?!?! who?!
A confession is in order...I haven't done as well as I hoped I would do with the man fast. I haven't gone head first and started dating anyone or anything, but I've certainly tip toped with flirtations and played with more fire than I know should've been permissible.
It's late and I'm both physically and emotionally tired. I have 4 months left of on this fast and i'm scared that when July rolls around I'll be the same person, junk still intact and heart still festering with 'ewwwwness'.