Thursday, January 31, 2008

I'm feeling better

I think I'm finally in the clear. Stomach issues are somewhat under control now. I've only been in the gym twice this week, both of which were for cardio. Tonight we work on muscles. I'll let you know how that goes...

On another note: spiritual muscles feel sprained! God's been bringing to light some pretty serious heart issues such as idolatry, jealousy, and "other" things. I'll ellaborate when it becomes more clear. Until then let us continue to press on.

2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:2-4

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Stomach Bug

Yesterday morning I woke up feeling kinda "off". Met Sir Chadwick at the gym and completed a semi normal cardio routine. I jokingly call him Merciless Mike when he's being hardcore but yesterday he was pure mercy and even let me off the hook with a semi medium easy routine. I'm thankful too cause I was feeling pretty crappy. I left the gym, headed to the office and found myself almost gagging through my breakfast (cottage cheese and peaches). I ended up leaving the office around 9:30am and heading home. I felt like I was going to be really sick there and decided to save face and hurl at home. Anyhow, I was sick for the rest of the day.

Oh, and when I got home I noticed that my sister's car was still in driveway. She too was sick. I wonder if we ate something or just caught a little bug. I dunno, and I don't care...I just want to get to feeling better already.

Thank you to all my girls for their well wishes. And, thanks Dane for bringing me soup and a bread bowl last night that was soooooooooooooooo super sweet. I probably had a total of 4 bites and I wish I could say it was delicious but you know how food and stomach issues go....

Oh, and my friend Diane said that she'd be more than happy to come by and drop off a can of soup at my door step. That made me laugh. Thanks, D!!

It's day 2 and I'm home. I feel guilty for being home and yet I can't seem to muster the energy to stay awake.

One more thing. Sir Chadwick has given me homework. My assignment - post two pictures. One picture has to be preworking out and the other has to be a recent picture. February 3rd marks our 6 months anniversary!!! (I love that exclamation pionts make one look so excited - if you could only see my face and engery level you'd laugh your head off) So, Stayed tuned for that post!

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Weight Loss Update

Starting Weight: 372 lbs
Current Weight: 319.4 lbs
Last Weigh In: -1.8 lbs
Total Weight Loss: 52.6 lbs

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Tag. I'm it!

My friend, Bianca, tagged me on this little deal. So, here are my answers.

1. Name one thing you do every day.
Aside from pray. I lather myself with an essential bit of Bath & Body Works cream. I love that each day I get to use a new flavor…it’s such a nice way to start my routine. I love it! I’ll share my kidney but don’t ask me to share my Bath & Body. LOL

2. Name two things you wish you could learn.

I wish I’d learn to love the Lord with all my heart, mind and soul. I’m tired of being a 30% lover of Christ. I WANT MORE!! I desire to desire Him.

3. Name three things that remind you of your childhood.
Swimming Pools. I immediately think of the sounds of splashing water, people laughing, blowing bubbles under water, dunking, and back floating in the middle of pool with one around but God. Good times.

Watermelon! Nothing like a cool piece of watermelon on a blistering Corpus Christi Day!

The Beach. I love the smell of salty air.

4. Name four things you love to eat but rarely do.
FRUIT CUPS!!! It’s a South Texas thing. This cup is loaded with all kinds of goodness. Fruit cups are layered as follows: (bottom to top) watermelon, cantaloupe, honey dew, pineapple (extra pineapple for me please!), cucumbers, and coconut. Then, there’s this yummy salty/spicy/lime concoction added over the top of the fruit and it drips down onto each layer to create this incredible almost indescribable GREATNESS! My mouth is literally watering as I write this!

My daddy’s BBQ! That’s all I gotta say about that!! I love my dad. I love his BBQ more! LOL jk DAD!

My mom’s lentijas! It’s like a Mexican version to the American Chili only made with lentils and has way more meat!

The Mediterranean Kitchen! My favorite dining experience in the whole wide world!! It’s located in Bellevue, WA (my old stomping ground) and I miss it dearly!

5. Name five things or people that make you feel good.
Holding a puppy. I just love their sweet soft fur. Not to mention that I LOVE LOVE LOVE puppy breath. I don’t know why…God made me weird like that!

My sister. When I stop and think about it, I mean really think about it, God could’ve put us in two different families but he chose to put us together! She knows my heart. She makes me laugh like no other on this planet and she gets me. I moved back from Seattle because I just couldn’t imagine raising a family without her.
*just a quick snap shot of us. This picture makes me laugh so hard!

Genuine Friends. I often feel the closest to the Lord when I’m with my friends in the middle of a laughing fit, tear running down my face, and completely unable to breath. I know that many people come into our lives for a reason and sometimes for only a season but regardless of their purpose I love them.

Waterbabies!!!! Not many of you know this but my true passion is aquatics. Not just any type of aquatics but infant aquatics! Here are a few pictures from a few classes I taught in Seattle. I hope one day God will allow me to start my very own swim school. I enjoyed teaching the itty babies and after much coaxing by the aquatic director I teaching the advanced group of kids (baby grads – 1st class session for the child without the parent in the water) and I later learned that they stole my heart. I just loved teaching them the most basic principles of water and when they learned to trust me they’d do just about anything I asked. God taught me so much with these children. I pray that as an adult that I’d be more like some of the babies I was able to swim along with – fearless, no hesitations, trusting and eager to play and learn.

The last answer goes without saying….. I love that our Lord is ever faithful. Why would He willingly choose us?!

Tag five people. You’re it!

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Spoke to soon!

Our workout tonight was certainly NOT easy. I'm thinking that my earlier post was written prematurely. There was a brief moment where I thought Sir Chadwick must've read up on this blog and was now getting me back! I'm sad to report that he hadn't read the post - he just stepped up the routine for the fun of it! How nice of him...

Wanna hear something really sick about Sir Chadwick? The poor guy was totally exhausted when he arrived at the gym. I don't know how he keeps up with his schedule. Seriously, between classes, work, church, serving and additional clients I really felt bad that he was so tired and was still faithful to meet me after his work day. However!!! don't feel too bad because the instant sweat started to drip down my face the stinker seemed to be re-energized I'd even venture to say he was almost "perky" SICKNESS!!! totally sickness!

Here are a few pictures of some of his latest "upgrades"

These are deceivingly painful and I'm still doing the modified version (knees on the floor)

Another upgrade - He added dumbbells. Not delicious!

One would think that holding a ball over your head while squatting would be relatively simple, right?!

This particular exercise causes my thighs to shake uncontrollably. Not fun but so worth the results. He's also fond of adding dumbbells or medicine balls to this exercise. Anything to keep me on my toes, right?

Quick Update

Just a quick update. Eating well this week. Work outs are going well. I don't know if my body is getting accustomed to the routine or strain, if I'm getting stronger, or if Sir Chadwick is giving me a slight break butthe gym stuff has been less difficult this week. I'm not in any way saying it's been easy either!

This has helped soothe my heart.
But when the goodness and loving kindness of God our Savior appeared, he saved us,not because of works done by us in righteousness, but according to his own mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewal of the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us richly through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that being justified by his grace we might become heirs according to the hope of eternal life.

Titus 3:4-7

Monday, January 21, 2008

Uncertain Night

It's almost 12am. I took a nap today before small group. I'm semi wired. Sitting here alone with my thoughts is not good for me. I don't have anything exciting to report but I felt like writing. Earlier today I found myself sitting in the parking lot of Mardel's Christian Book Store after just having ended a conversation with my accountilbilty partner. It's so funny how God has used her to speak truth into my life. Had her confronting and sharp words come from anyone else I'm positive my instant reaction would've resulted in verbal vomit....on my part.

Pride. Jealousy. Unbelief. Yup, those are the top three right now. I opened my Bible earlier today and it seemed like the words just washed over my eyes but never landed anywhere in my head. I couldn't absorb anything. I tried to pray but even that seemed so hard. I wonder what's happening right now. I'm afraid to dig into my heart. I secretly don't want to uncover anymore crap. It's inevitable, isn't it?

Saturday, January 19, 2008


I have good news! After moaning and groaning all week long. After fighting God all morning long to not weigh in. I finally decided to get my buns out of bed and over to Weight Watchers. Sir Chadwick gave me the ok to NOT weigh in and believe me I had every intention of staying in bed but the nudge woke me up. So, at 10:30am I round the stairs to Weight Watchers and open the door to face my week.

I step on the scale only find 2.6lbs less of myself!

Do you know what that means?!?!

I've lost a total of 50.8 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally after weeks and weeks of 0.4lbs and 0.8lbs weight losses and expecting to reach a 50lbs weight loss goal by January 1st it's finally here on Saturday, January 19th! The second I heard the news I started to cry. I was so frustrated with trying so hard. I'm sure y'all could tell I was frustrated by my most recent posts. All I can say is that I'm so pleased it's finally here!

I couldn't wait to call Sir Chadwick. As I reached for my phone I noticed that my father was calling. He was able to get the first news. Earlier this week I called him in tears. One morning before work I found myself lost. Almost hopeless. I cried to my dad that I wasn't sure how I could ever be able to continue this journey and that I was afraid of letting everyone down. He instantly rebuked me, followed it with sweet words of encouragement then lead us into prayer. I'm so thankful for Godly parents.

Sir Chadwick was proud. When he answered the phone he almost sounded ready to hear good news. How could he have known? Well, I guess he must've had a good idea because he kicked my butt this week. What would I do without him? He's truly a God send.

I can't thank y'all enough for all your prayers and sweet words this week. Until the next post! Adios.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Robin’s Prediction was correct

Yesterday: Allow me to set the stage. During my lunch break I head to the gym (alone because earlier that morning I cancelled on Sir Chadwick). I know the routine well enough to know somewhat how to get along alone in the cardio room. So, I hop on the ArcTrainer. I make all the manual adjustments to the machine and get started. Oh, and because Sir Chadwick is out of the picture, for the day, I get to use my handy dandy iPod shuffle. Once I get my favorite tunes going I start pushing. The first 8-10 minutes were ok. No major sweating occurs at this time only a slight glimmer of evidence which points to the oncoming downpour. Sure enough my body starts working and the sweat starts pouring. Because Sir Chadly is nowhere in site I decide to be totally gross and NOT wipe my face of the sweat that is now literally dropping off the edge of my pudgy nose. The constant reaching for my towel, wiping and readjusting of my hand position on the machine is a distraction I don’t feel like messing with at the moment. Plus, in a sick way it was really really cool to see sweat puddle forming on the floor just below me. Ok, enough about the sweat…. I swear I get so distracted!

After a long 30 minutes on the ArcTrainer I hop off and grab the sanitizing wipes provided by the gym to clean up my sweaty mess. In the process of cleaning the machine this lady next to me is trying to start up a conversation but I’m hardly able to speak because my heart is still pounding and I can hardly breathe so she basically gets one word answers to all her questions. I bet she thought I was so rude. I actually feel awful for not talking more to her, maybe God will reintroduce me to her next time I’m in there. Anyhow, back to the story…. From the ArcTrainer I move to treadmill for an expected 15 more minutes of cardio. So, there I go to the treadmill. While waiting for the starting count down on the treadmill I get this slight tummy ach/cramp but it lower than normal so I thought “girlie stuff” must be brewing. The pain goes from slight to sharp in a matter of seconds then subsides quickly so I think I’m pretty much good to go. So, I go. Punch in 3.8 and I’m off.

Somewhere between 4-5 minutes I realize that I instantly “gotta go!” I start to panic because Sir Chadwick has drilled it in my head to never quick an exercise when your heart rate is still pretty high. I was somewhere in the 150’s when this started and I had to get down to the 130’s before I excuse myself.  haha! With all my might I’m hanging on. I’m slowly dropping the pace. I’m patiently waiting for my heart rate drop. My body is now screaming. I hope y’all understand the gravity of the situation. When this girl’s gotta go – SHE”S GOTTA GO! So, now I’m walking at a 3.0 and my heart rate is dropping but it seems like it’s taking forever!!! I’m starting to freak out and now I’m sweating. It’s not the sweat you get from working out it’s the cold sweat you get when dread begins to grip your body. AND, to make matters worse because I’m freaking out my heart rate begins to rise!!!! Imagine my confusion! So, after what seems like years I’m finally clear. Long story short……….. I made it.

2 months ago: A group of us are at the GreenHouse and my friend, Robin, asks me “hey, Marcy have you ever worked out so hard that you’ve gotten instant diarrhea?” As most of my good friends know I love a good poopie story yet sadly I didn’t know what she was talking about. My answer to her question was “ummmm, no.” Then she says "It's ok. It'll happen." Then we went on to have a glorious poopie discussion. :)

Well, now I know!!! And, can I just tell you that even in those crazy moments of my life God is still so humorous and faithful. His timing is always perfect. Just imagine. No, seriously imagine how much worse that would’ve been had Sir Chadwick been in the picture. I WOULD HAVE DIED ON THAT TREADMILL because he would’ve pushed me to the end and I wouldn’t have had the guts to say “ummm excuse me Merciless Mike I GOTTA GO!!!” He would’ve scoffed and said “get to moving maggot! This is MY HOUSE! ” Ok, I exaggerate but still….. I would’ve seriously died! ROFL!

I hope y’all enjoyed that one. For those of you who don’t know this side of me…what can I say “I’m special”!

Love you!

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Up to the Mountain

My girl, Amber, sent me this song to encourage me during this season but as you'll soon find out...I was utterly moved by the video.

Thank you, Amber! I now have a lump in my throat the size of New Jersey! I love you!

Monday, January 14, 2008

Today is a new day

Instead of spending any more wasted time moaning about those things I do not currently have I’m choosing to remember….

a. Starting treadmill pace 1.5 - Current treadmill pace 3.8
b. Starting weight 372 lbs – Current weight 323.8 lbs
c. Starting size 30-32 - Current size 26-28
d. Starting accountability…next to none – Current accountability …immeasurable!
e. How do you measure the level of intensity at which we currently workout? I don’t know ….ask Mike. I’m sure he’ll be proud to boast.
f. Dependence on God…. I need a daily dose of humility to continually remind me that I’m not in control and it’s NOT about me!

Thank you for all the emails that poured into my inbox. Thank you for reminding me that I’m not alone. Thank you for pushing me through prayer and encouragement.

A super special thanks for my trainer and brother in Christ, Mike Chadwick (aka Sir Chadwick). Thank you for literally sweating it out with me. Thank you for pushing me even when I give you the evil eye. Thank you for pushing me way past my comfort zone and for believing in me. Thank you for not letting me “escape” the pain. Thank you for not letting me quit. Thank you for letting me cry – even when I don’t want to. Lastly, thank for you for praying with me.

I’m so thankful that our God would put so many Godly and faithful people in my life. I can’t even begin to express my gratitude for you all. My dear and faithful friend (Donna McMath - from Idaho) encouraged me to pick up a 50lb bag of salt and truck it around a bit to see what 50lbs feels like once it’s been off. Any other suggestions for a 50lbs pick up?! I’m gonna try it this week so I need ideas. I’ll let you know how that goes.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

I don't understand

I worked extra hard this week. I measured everything that went into my body. I counted each point. I followed the plan. I refused temptation when it came my way and still today's weigh in was a total disappointment.

The feeling of being so incredibly close to your goal yet having it continue to stay just beyond your reach is such a painful/comforting reminder that we aren't in control. I have to confess that after getting the news that I only lost 0.8lbs this week my instant reaction was anger - directed toward God. I know it's a bold statement but it's honest. I was angry with him. I can't fully explain why....I was being a bratty punk.

Currently sitting at Panera Bread. When my food arrived at my table I sat before it for a few moments in total mental silence. I couldn't eat it yet my stomach was growling and my heart was aching for comfort, encouragement and repentence. I couldn't even eat without asking for forgiveness. The pride that so quickly wells up in my heart was subsided the instant I bowed my head in submission.

I can't run this race without Him. When I am weak He has promised to be strong. It's been a hard week in more ways that just weight loss.

Here's a text sent early this morning by my close friend/brutal accountability partner, Dane.
Hey friend! I just needed to tell you something this morning- even if by some chance you don't meet your goal weight today it's OKAY! God is still on His throne and LOVES YOU very much and it will still happen! So remember that today. Love ya

How could she have known? What would've motivated her to write such a text?

We all know the answer to that question....

All is well. As hard as it seems right now I know I won't quit. Thanks for stopping by today.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Spaghetti Arms

Sir Chadwick switched up the routine a bit. Any change in the routine is welcomed, yet I always have this twinge of apprehension. I always wonder “what if I can’t do this new stuff” or “Dang! What’s he’s got up his sleeve now!” My mind runs the gamut of emotions and thoughts so quickly I often forget what I’m feelings. I know women are strange that way…

We started warming up the Arc Trainer. It’s a fun little machine. I hope you picked up on the oozing sarcasm. Anyhow, we tried it a couple months ago but my body wasn’t ready for it. Apparently, now I’m ready for it… it feels like we hit that thing running on Monday. He instantly starts pushing in all these numbers to get the machine going. It asks for him for my weight and I see that the types in “325” and you know what my reaction was?!!? I started to lunge forward to say “oh wait! It’s 372.” Why in the world would I think I still weigh 372?!? Strange isn’t it? I mean it isn’t like I haven’t physically felt these past 47.4lbs dripping off my body. And, it isn’t like I haven’t reveled in each pound lost, but I still wonder what is happening in my head when my natural instinct is to say I weigh 372. Any suggestions?!

So, back to the routine….let me just tell you that it’s different. Initially I thought “wow, this isn’t that bad”……… WHATEVER!! Midway through the workout I was nasty, icky, and dripping with sweat. AND!!!! He added crunches! I knew it was just a matter of time before he incorporated those suckers! I just knew it! I’m not complaining though. The results are amazing. I feel so much better. I move better. Heck, I even look better. My face is rounding down, my upper arms are trimming/slimming, I’ve dropped at least 2 sizes and soon I’ll have to start taking my clothes to get altered because this girl isn’t buying new close until I have to.

So, Spaghetti arms…this is where the title came of this blog was birthed. I get to the office this morning and one of the guys comes over to my desk and hands me this printed email. He says “you’ve gotta read”. So, I grab the sheets from him and start reading, now mind you, I start reading the email and my arms are relaxed but firm and just a little bit away from my body, my arms start to hurt/ache so I swivel my chair around and lay my elbows on the top of my desk. I continue reading. At some point I realized that my arms continue to hurt and that for some reason I’m reading the worlds longest email ever! I can’t even focus on what I’m reading because I can’t get comfortable! Seriously, I can’t hold up 2 ,count them, 2 sheets of paper and 1 tiny staple or was it a paperclip?? – I can’t remember!! Anyhow, that’s not the point, the point is that those 2 sheets and one paperclip/staple felt like I was holding a 12lbs BABY! How sad is that!! So, hence…the spaghetti arms.

Random Info: The phase spaghetti arms came to life one summer while watching the movie Dirty Dancing on continual repeat with my siblings and cousin. Good times! Lots of living room dancing and movie quoting/singing… Oh, to be 10 again.

Monday, January 7, 2008

I'm an Emotional Eater

I took this quiz online this afternoon AND, this is what I found out about my eating habits...big surprise. :)

Most of the results weren't a total surprise because God's been working on heart in this area. Actually, "working" is putting it nicely...He's been beating the mess out of me in this area!! I can't tell you how many times I've thought about going to food to numb something I've been trying NOT to feel only to have that gentle nudge from the Holy Spirit reminding me that God was willing and waiting for me. I hate to admit this but there have been times, more often than not, that I've actively chosen to ignore that sweet call.

Emotional Eater
You use food to affect your mood. This started as a conscious way to motivate yourself when you needed it, but then it became your second nature and turned into an unconscious method of dealing with problems.

Your Eating Habits
You are familiar with sweets, such as cookies, ice cream, cakes, waffles and other carb-loaded diet killers. They somehow creep into your diet whenever you need a little bit of moral support, or when you feel frustrated, unhappy or simply bored. Therefore, those excess calories are not consumed during your regular meals, but in between.

The Solution
Emotional cravings are not always easily recognizable as such. This is especially true for people who are used to eating snacks and sweets every once in a while. In those cases, emotional eating patterns only become evident when they have already taken place. Therefore, emotional eaters should plan their meals ahead, and always have a clear idea how much they want to consume. This makes any deviations clearly recognizable and allows the user to find alternate and non-food related methods for feeling better.

Great website:

Sunday, January 6, 2008


Here are just a few pictures I wanted to share.

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Songs that Gripped my Heart in 2007

Here's a basic list of songs that influenced my life this year.

Listed in no particular order.

Song Title & Artist
None but Jesus by Hillsong
*On itunes alone I listened to this song 300 times! if you get a chance listen to it! It's one of those songs that you'll bypass initially but give it a chance it's anointed.

Almost Home by Craig Morgan * I just love this song. Craig Morgan has an incredible voice.

Shine On by Needtobreathe *It's my lifesong! AND, it motivates me to keep moving.

My Savior My God by Aaron Shust *one of my favorite songs to sing in the car

All My Praise by Selah *discovered this song while on a long thoughtful walk. I cried...

Higher by Hillsong *gives me goose bumps

As Long as the Day by Josh Drew *CAN NOT get enough of this song! I've been begging Josh for a copy of this song since the first time I heard it this last summer. I generally listen to it before bed or before prayer - WOW!!

I Am by Eddy James *My friend Dane introduced me to this one.

You are Better by Michael Bleeker *listen to it that's all I gotta say about this one! Puts your entire walk into prospective.

Burn us Up by Shane & Shane *this song took me by surprise. The entire cd, Papers, is well worth the investment! do it!

Thursday, January 3, 2008

Plank Panic Attack

I don't know what possessed me...I was online and I Googled "Planks". Oh, the dread that hit my heart.

Check this out: Plank Hell!

I can't believe the madness gets worse!

Quick prayer to God: Dear Lord, please! Please! don't let Sir Chadwick ever remember to bring this into the gym. AMEN!


Here are just a few pictures of the many that we took during our festivities.

Beautiful Amber Amber

Here are my Cheeky girls - Diane & Britt (we get each other - it was love at first laugh)

The Infamous Sir Chadly

Britt's facial expressions are PRICELESS!

Here's one of my biggest blessings... I heart her mucho!

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Wrapping Up 2007

Looking back on the past couple of months it’s been pretty awesome and completely unbelievable. I can't say that my life is totally different, but in many ways it's so so very different. For instance, if someone had told me last January that the end of December 2007 I would've lost 47lbs I'd most likely smile, wish with all my heart that it would be true, but inevitably I wouldn't believe them.

During the early part of 2007 I was involved with a group called SideWire (a single’s social group organized by The Village Church) and it was there that I met Sir Chadwick. If someone had pointed him out to me and said “one day that guy will pour is life, time, energy, heart and soul into your freedom” I seriously seriously seriously would’ve doubted it. I’ve jokingly confessed to Sir Chadwick that my initial opinion of him wasn’t flattering. I judged him so harshly. My judgment stemmed for my own insecurities. Because he was athletic, because he said he was a personal trainer, because he was aloof, I thought he was self absorbed. Oh, how God has used that man to humble me… I’ve since learned but I was very very wrong about him. I keep thinking about that verse that says “Man sees the outer appearance but God sees the heart” Smack down for Marcy! Ouch!

If someone would've said to me that I'd be in a small group that I love love love love love I also wouldn't believe it. I totally begrudged home group! I was absolutely content with being a ghost at the Village church. It was so easy to come and go as I pleased. I LOVED not having true accountability. I know I used to be so shallow! :) God had other plans. He always does, doesn’t he?! Long story short I’m in a small group. I often can’t wait to get to small group. I can’t wait to see my girls. I can’t wait to talk Jesus, live life, laugh our heads off, and even cry eyes out. They've all taught me so much. I trust them. I rely on them. I need them. It’s so cool to see how only God could’ve orchestrated such a perfect union of women who are all SO DIFFERENT. We share such a special bond. Keeping our treasure would be selfish so as of January 14th we’re splitting. I had to take a quick moment before continuing to write because it saddens me to think that we’re splitting, but I’m encouraged to see what’s to come. I’ve been asked to lead this new group. I can only hope and pray that God will continue to do a mighty work within both groups. I know he will. Here's a quick picture of my girls.

Since returning from Seattle some mere 3 years ago it's pretty bizarre to see how much my life has changed. For those of you who knew me when.... you know exactly what I'm talking about. In short I was a total mess. We serve such an awesome and powerful God. Who are we that He would choose to call us His own? I’ll never understand His sovereignty but I rest in knowing that He’s got all under control.

There is so much more I could say about 2007.