Monday, January 3, 2011

What the heck?!?!

It's been days since this fast has started and it seems that the trials are slowly starting to roll in. These trails are small, very small, and not all that tempting, but nonetheless men that I may have previously dated or talked to are suddenly starting to emerge from all over the place, the gym, random text messages, emails, phone calls and even facebook!!

Ah! I'm glad these tests are starting off slow, it'll be good for my spiritual muscles to build some endurance. Before the fast started I sat down and heavily considered my greatest temptations and made a plan of action. I know they're coming, not sure when or how, but I'll have to face them sometime.

This journey isn't even about men, but about the things I hold on to so tightly. Affirmations, compliments and attention make me feel good, but with all feelings are often fleeting. I long for something much deeper.

I'll keep you posted.

1 comment:

Rebecca said...

I am proud of you!!! We seriously need to get together SOON! I want to hear more about what is going on in your life!!!