It's almost 12am. I took a nap today before small group. I'm semi wired. Sitting here alone with my thoughts is not good for me. I don't have anything exciting to report but I felt like writing. Earlier today I found myself sitting in the parking lot of Mardel's Christian Book Store after just having ended a conversation with my accountilbilty partner. It's so funny how God has used her to speak truth into my life. Had her confronting and sharp words come from anyone else I'm positive my instant reaction would've resulted in verbal vomit....on my part.
Pride. Jealousy. Unbelief. Yup, those are the top three right now. I opened my Bible earlier today and it seemed like the words just washed over my eyes but never landed anywhere in my head. I couldn't absorb anything. I tried to pray but even that seemed so hard. I wonder what's happening right now. I'm afraid to dig into my heart. I secretly don't want to uncover anymore crap. It's inevitable, isn't it?