Monday, September 24, 2007

It happened.....

My first non weight loss week..... I gained 1.4lbs. For the past 7 weeks I've been telling myself "it's going to happen and when it does it'll be ok..." well, it happened and I wasn't ok. I left weight watchers sorta disappointed but mostly surprised. I fully expected to lose at least 2lbs this week. I did have a bunch of lunch meetings and dinner meetings but I was mostly careful of what I ate. I felt proud that I've been making better food choices. My diet isn't perfect but it's better - much better than it used to be. We also worked extra hard this week in the gym. I was certain of weight loss. I guess my body has other plans.

It certainly took me on a downward spiral to tears - lots of them! I met with my trainer shortly after my weigh in and I blurted out the news and his reaction or rather non-reaction just messed me up. I thought he was disappointed in me and it hurt my feelings. I know he's been working just as hard as I have been and I didn't want him to feel like his hard work and effort was all for not. To make matters worse he changed our routine and had me hit the walking trail outside the gym. I"m currently up to 2.8 on the treadmill for a solid 30-40+ minutes but for some reason walking out the concrete was brutal! My legs hurts, my feet hurt, the lump in my throat kept me from being able to fully breath - it was awful. We were both quiet and pensive and the mood just set my emotions on edge.

Long story short I spent a good deal of the afternoon in prayer. I needed comfort and I went straight to the floor. I love that we can come to our Father in any and every condition. I love that He loves us despite all our shortcomings. Maybe I needed to be knocked down a notch or two. Maybe I was getting cocky. Maybe I stopped leaning on the Lord. Only He knows where my heart was headed. I did speak with my trainer later that day and he was reassuring and encouraging.

I also learned a little more about my friends during this week too. When I went to those that are holding me accountable during this this time some were understanding and quick to encourage me to press on toward my goal while others gave me the *tsk tsk tsk* look that truly made me feel ashamed. Now I know....

This is a picture I saw the night before my weigh in and for the first time I noticed. I noticed my face is getting smaller and so is my upper body. I even woke up the morning of weigh in totally pumped. I couldn't wait to see what progress I had made during the week.... Over all I know 1.4lbs isn't such a big deal (especially for a woman) I'm ready this week and I plan on working harder. Thanks for all your comments.
Here's a picture of myself and Lucy (a friend's dog)
 

I was laughing so hard because Lucy (the lab) was sniffing Parker's "stuff" and he had a minor moment of panic - poor boy didnt know what was happening. I know I have a sick sense of humor!
 
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6 comments:

robin said...

Know that a weight gain of 1.4 is completely normal. Your body is used to working out and eating healthier. Not to make up excuses, but 1.4 lbs could be water weight or a number of other things. Work hard and eat right, one day at a time, and you won't continually be disappointed. You may even have another gain this next week or two during weigh in and that is ok. Over the long run you will be successful if you keep working hard. I have faith in your discipline and commitment to your new, healthier lifestyle. I love you and am praying for you.

nicole said...

Hang in there woman! 1.4 is nothing and will be more than gone plus some with your dedicated hard work and faith! Keep up the good work! Love ya

Marcy said...

This is a bit of an email I got from a great friend! Made me laugh so hard!

Just remind yourself that you're working your way to a better, healthier you--it's going to be a long tedious road and no doubt are you going to feel like giving up....BUT I WON'T LET YOU!!! YOU CAN DO IT! Look at how damn far you've gotten!?!? 18 pounds is like two healthy newborns!!! you dropped two healthy new borns off your body!!! That's really damn good! There I go with the exclamation marks. Anyhow, don't be so hard on yourself---you'll reach your goal and then some. I'm amazed and inspired by you--keep it up.

Marc said...

allo marcy . as surely many ppl told you , this is simply a temporary setback . since the beginning you're doing very good and got good results . you just need to keep going the same .
ps: exercising is no excuse for responding late my mails, specialy when i send you pics

hwapper said...

I echo what Robin has said, your body is getting use to the exertion so it's adapting. Don't lose heart, your trainer probably got you off the treadmill specifically for this reason.

Also, walking/running on a treadmill is much easier than walking/running on solid ground. The treadmill by it's very nature requires less energy to take a step once you've gotten it started. But the ground doesn't so you're expending more energy. So don't be disappointed if you can't do your usual distance or for your usual time. Plus don't you enjoy the 90+ degree falls we have here in Texas?

Tracey Clifton said...

1.4 is huge...why are you discouraged? Are you kidding me what about the possibility of muscle gain? You are exchanging fat for muscle and muscle lean muscle is heavier than fat. As your work outs extend and you get leaner and leaner you'll experience gain here and there...Don't fret my pet. You know your eating better you know you are working SIX DAYS A WEEK!!!!!!!!!!! You won't be let down. You are strong and courageous. When you see those gains and you know in your heart you are working toward your goal with each and every step you say bye bye fat...hello lean muscle.