Tuesday, September 8, 2009


My heart is stirring......

The winds of change are calling my name.....

The last time I got this feeling I was headed back to Texas and before then I was headed to Seattle.

I love change. I love the newness of everything in a new environment. I love meeting new people. I love waiting on God to orchestrate friendships and future relationships.

Like I said, something is stirring in my heart. I can't pinpoint it. A new relationship is budding. My heart is longing for a facility to officially begin the dream of Texas Waterbabies (my swim school) and on top of it all I'm feeling really insecure at work these days....maybe I should go back to school and become a nurse. Or, maybe I should get my masters...

The one constant in my life is the on going battle toward weight removal and life. The other true constant is God. He never moves. He never changes. It's still hard for me to understand his grace even after I've turned my back on Him time and time again.

I read this (Psalm 143) a two weeks ago and I continue to gravitate toward these words because they are so me in this time.
4 So my spirit grows faint within me;
my heart within me is dismayed.

5 I remember the days of long ago;
I meditate on all your works
and consider what your hands have done.

6 I spread out my hands to you;
my soul thirsts for you like a parched land.

The rest of the chapter is beautiful, but at this time I remember the days of long ago...

1 comment:

Rebecca said...

Girl, we need to go for a nice, long walk! It has been WAY too long! I have started jogging with a family that I know and for the first time in my life I enjoy running!!! Really, I just enjoy the time with friends, but it is helping me to build up my stamina! Anyway, pushing myself makes me think of you and all of your hard work! I am not pushing myself nearly that hard, but I have been working out about 4-5 days a week which is HUGE for me! Okay, so let me know when we're going for a long walk!