Seasons This!!

Hello, FALL!!!!!!


I've missed you!!!
(fall doesn't officially start until 5:18pm EDT, but still....it's here!!!!)

Tired.

I'm so tired today. Trying to tackle my work load is nearly impossible at the moment. If I could only lay my head down and sleep for a few hours maybe I could focus this afternoon.

Ever been so tired you can't sleep? I think that was my problem last night. I just laid there in bed for what seemed like forever! I finally feel asleep around 1:30 only to be up and moving by 6:20am.....

Lunch. Who needs food? I think I'm to tired to chew.

Long way....

I love this photo. It was taken during small group many many Monday nights ago. I was going through Recovery at the Village and during that time God was stirring up all sorts of hidden festering messes in my heart. It was a painfully sweet time to say the least.

As many of my friends and family already know I'm a pretty sentimental person. I cry for anything, a sweet commercial/movie/song, a tender word, a genuine compliment, a huge accomplishment or after a really hard laugh. On this particular night my heart was incredibly tender, no matter what I did I couldn't stop crying!!! I just sat there and cried and cried! It wasn't just a sad cry either, it was a sweet "Thank you, Jesus for being so merciful to show me" kinda cry.

So, as you'll notice in the photo I'm half crying and half laughing. My girl, Sara came to "comfort" me as the tears flowed, but what's 100 times more funny is that Sara wasn't (up until that point) an outwardly affectionate person. I mean don't get me wrong... this woman would die for me but at the time we were still getting to know each other and her sweet extension of awkward comfort just made me cry all the more!!! She didn't know what to do. She didn't offer to hug me, but I do remember her putting her hand on my shoulder and sorta patting me. Sara, my very own Sexy Slowry just sat there and let me cry it out. She didn't, nor did anyone else at that time, know what to do for me but the mere fact that they'd try was heartwarming and memorable.

Thanks for the love, Sara. I'll forever cherish this photo! I'll forever cherish your friendship.

Monster...

Here's my Daddy-o and his granbaby. It was really cute to see how my dad tended to his grandson while my parents visited over the weekend. As much as my dad loves to cut up and have fun it seemed that when he was holding Daevin nothing else matters... not even his DAUGHTERS!!!!

I'm OK....really! I love that little dude.

I wonder what he's thinking here..

While hanging out with my brother and sister-in-law I said

Me: I hope Daevin's a dancer...meaning he hears a beat and just starts moving and shakin' it!

Cheri (my sister-in-law): Not me! I hope he's a ninja!

David and I just busted out laughing!!!

Heavy.

My heart is stirring......

The winds of change are calling my name.....

The last time I got this feeling I was headed back to Texas and before then I was headed to Seattle.

I love change. I love the newness of everything in a new environment. I love meeting new people. I love waiting on God to orchestrate friendships and future relationships.

Like I said, something is stirring in my heart. I can't pinpoint it. A new relationship is budding. My heart is longing for a facility to officially begin the dream of Texas Waterbabies (my swim school) and on top of it all I'm feeling really insecure at work these days....maybe I should go back to school and become a nurse. Or, maybe I should get my masters...

The one constant in my life is the on going battle toward weight removal and life. The other true constant is God. He never moves. He never changes. It's still hard for me to understand his grace even after I've turned my back on Him time and time again.

I read this (Psalm 143) a two weeks ago and I continue to gravitate toward these words because they are so me in this time.

⁴ So my spirit grows faint within me;
my heart within me is dismayed.

⁵ I remember the days of long ago;
I meditate on all your works
and consider what your hands have done.

⁶ I spread out my hands to you;
my soul thirsts for you like a parched land.
Selah

The rest of the chapter is beautiful, but at this time I remember the days of long ago...