Fast Catch Up

I'm about to start week 3 of steps. Week one was a breeze. The going deeper section of week 2 semi got on my nerves. I had a difficult time answering some of the questions. I know the 'right' answer, but I didn't know if I really believed the answers. Does that make sense? Anyhow, I wrestled a bit and semi gave up trying, but in the end some questions (and the lack of answers) continue to haunt me.

The Sugar Fast:

Sugar. I've done so incredibly well in this area it's kinda scary.

A few weeks ago some friends (Sara, Renatta & Mita) and I went out for a Wal-Mart run. Sara had a hankerin' for ice cream and Mita needed school supplies for her upcoming semester at TWU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (yay!! i'm still so very proud of you O' sister of mine!) I'm not typically inclined to join the gaggle of girls (or even guys) for mass shopping, but they left me with no option. I went along and it wasn't that bad.

We finally made it to the ice cream section. Sara is perusing the isle looking for the perfect sweet treat, when I noticed to my favorite Mexican ice cream! I pressed my face to this glass in amazement and think "Why in the world would this primarily 'white' Wal-Mart carry those and in some many FLAVORS?!?!?!?!"

I can't remember for certain what I said, maybe I just groaned, like I said...I can't remember. When I suddenly hear Sara say "Awww....(that was a not so sympathetic awww by the way) you can check back in July."

*insert mental explicative here* I, as well as the other ladies, couldn't help but laugh..... That's how accountability works with us. Thanks, y'all!

You better believe that between now and June 30th I won't be found anywhere near the Swisher Wal-Mart! As I've matured I've learned that in order for me to beat temptation I need to be far removed from those triggers! I'll be shopping in Denton from here on out! =)

The Man Fast:

This portion of my fast has proven to be much more of a challenge.

I met an exceptional man before this fast started and for the first time in my history with men I obeyed God, put the friendship on hold, and entered this season of non-distraction with the Lord. Although, I haven't been actively engaged with this particular man, he continues to consume my thought life.... On a number of mornings after non stop nightly fantasizing session about him I've awoken and begged God for freedom from him and these endless thoughts. It has been obvious that despite the fact that we're not communicating he's still such a huge distraction! It's tiresome and I long for something else...

This verse comes to mind:

for my people have committed two evils: they have forsaken me,

the fountain of living waters,

and hewed out cisterns for themselves,

broken cisterns that can hold no water.

Jeremiah 2:13

As previously posted, men continue to come out of the wood works. I haven't had any issue withstanding these tests, but there have been certain times that I find myself lonely or bored and I long for that attention. I can't wait for this part of me to change.

My current indulgence!